Remember, Life is a Journey

Sometimes I have to remind myself that Life is a journey. We are on a journey in this lifetime. It was not meant to be lived to obtain a goal and just ride out the rest of your life at that point. I do believe that some people think that and I know that I get stuck in that from time to time. When I was younger, it was easy to keep growing. I was in school and there was goal to graduate. Then there was a goal to go to university and graduate from that. After that, it was supposed to be get a job, get married and raise a family until retirement and at that point you were supposed to enjoy life, but that can lead to a very boring life. In the plant world, you are either growing or you are dying, and I think for the most part, that is how we are in physical form. Our bodies are continually regenerating themselves. I have heard that all the cells in our body are replaced every seven days. So, every week, we are a new physical form. So, what does it mean to continue growing in the later years of your life? First, what are those later years? I think those later years are anytime after which you believe you are done growing. Maybe that is when you get your dream job and want to ride it out. Maybe that is when you hit a plateau in your career and do not feel you can go any higher or further. If I look at those later...

Time to Blog Again

It has been a long time since I have written a blog post and it is not that I have not been writing, it is more that I have not been sharing what I am writing, or more specifically, what I am going through. Writing is a way for me to work through what I am going through. Sometimes my writing is just documenting what is going on, but when I am really writing, I am looking at what is going on in my life and seeking guidance, which comes in allowing the writing to flow and go where it needs to go. The written word is a form a meditation for me. When I am really seeking and trying to understand, writing has been healing for me. I have known for a while that I have needed to share what I am writing, but I have been afraid to share, afraid to shine the light on me, to show you my challenges and my growth. If I show you my challenges, I fear that you will see me as imperfect, flawed, incapable of helping others, and that is where I am perfect. I am perfect where I am, going through my challenges, and everyone else has their own challenges. I was reminded of this recently from a best selling author who told the story of the panic she went through on her book tour. She had to be reminded by her mentor that we all go through it. We are all challenged and have issues all the time. We are a work in progress. I know that and...

Who do I want to be?

On my way to the office this week, I was listening to a podcast and the guest asked “who do you want to be?” “Who do I want to be?” is an interesting question. I have been very focused on “what do I want?” and I have had a hard time defining what I want - for many reasons, one of which is that “what I want” is outside of me. It is about things. Yes, I will agree that that is not the only reason, but when compared to “who do I want to be?”, I feel this question is more about starting within me. It gets into the core of me. It gets me to be me before I can consider answering that question. There is a similar thought that I pondered several times in my life and that was “begin with the end in mind” from Stephen R. Covey. His exercise around “begin with the end in mind” was to imagine your funeral and imagine the various areas of your life. In each of those areas, like husband, father, friend, imagine who is speaking about you and what would they say. In all the times I have thought through this exercise, I do not believe I have ever imagined a person talking about what I got in life. Nobody talked about the house I lived in, or the cars that I drove, they all talked about how I made them feel and how I treated them. Getting back to “who do I want to be?”, the first answer is that I want to be me and...

What is Vulnerability?

What is vulnerability? That is an interesting question that I have been pondering. As I was talking about an issue I was having with a friend of mine. She kept poking me with questions to take me deeper and  the word vulnerability showed up for me. As I looked at vulnerability, the image that I received was that of a Roman Sentry in full battle gear - shield, armor, helmet and spear. Feeling into this image, I could feel vulnerability being a weakness. If I was vulnerable, I could not protect the people that I love. Being in this armor, life feels very restrictive, very tense - I always had to be ready to protect, to fight for the people that I love. In this image, I felt like I had to make sure that I did not fail, because failing would mean that the people that I love would be hurt and how could I let them be hurt. Failing meant that I might loose my job and if I lost my job, how could I provide for, or protect, my family. Fear of failing means I need to play it safe, keep my head down, and not speaking up. Being restricted by the armor, keeps me from asking for help. I believe I have to do it all, and by myself. If somebody asks me to do something, I have to take it on and do it - no matter what, because I am not vulnerable, I can do it all. I am protecting them. Staying away from vulnerability meant that I had to be careful what...

Do you want things?

For a while now, I have been trying to figure out what I want and having a very hard time defining what I want and I think I am finally realizing that I have been conditioned to want "things" and I am starting to become dissatisfied with "things". Don’t get me wrong, I have had a lot of things in my life and I have manifested a lot of things in my life. For example, at one time, I desired a BMW 7 series car and I manifested one. I loved driving it. The BMW 7 series is a wonderful car to drive, but it felt like a bit much of a car for me. I was always worried about it getting scratched or hit or what people were thinking about plain old simple me in this nice fancy car. I then manifested a BMW 5 series and felt much more comfortable in the 5 series over the 7 series. Yes, I know the 5 series is not as nice at the 7 series and I miss the 7 series, but I feel more comfortable in the 5 series. What is it about what I want that I really want? In thinking about that question, I am starting to realize that what I really want is the experiences, feelings, or memories that I am getting from the wanting. At one time, I had a bigger house on a multi acre property. It was a wonderful house, but what I really loved about that house was the memories that I have from living there, like the parties that we hosted...

What Are You Creating?

Have you ever considered that you are creating your life? And I can hear all of you saying, “But” and I know you are saying it because I am saying it to myself. How can I be creating my life if I have so many problems in my life. I do not have enough money. My job is a pain in the butt. My kids drive me nuts. My car is falling apart. And let’s not even get started about my family. What would it take for your situation to change? And I know some of you will say more money. Why do you not have more money? Well, didn’t you see my list above. Yes, I saw your list and we all have our lists and if you really think about it, they are your excuses and if you are willing to consider your list as excuses, then just maybe you can consider that you have created these excuses as part of the life that you created. I know that I have been thinking about this idea that I have created the life that I have for a while and I am starting to consider three possibilities about why I have created the life that I have. First, I have created this life because I have attracted it to me. If I look at my thoughts about my life, then I can start to see that I have attracted this life to me. Consider your thoughts. Are you thinking about all the money you do not have, or are you thinking about all the ways you can create...